There are a bunch of very simple things I need to get done, yet whenever I think about starting to do one of them, my heart speeds up and my mind tries to find a black hole to hide in. I feel like such a coward right now.
After the things I've been through, making a phone call to a doctor, secretary, caseworker, or whatever, or reading e-mails from select people (no-one reading this; believe me, I read all of you when you write), should not be that difficult to do. I know I've lived through worse than this--so why does it seem so hard to live through this?
Aside from a few bright spots (Gatlinburg!), 2003 really has not been a fun year for me.
After the things I've been through, making a phone call to a doctor, secretary, caseworker, or whatever, or reading e-mails from select people (no-one reading this; believe me, I read all of you when you write), should not be that difficult to do. I know I've lived through worse than this--so why does it seem so hard to live through this?
Aside from a few bright spots (Gatlinburg!), 2003 really has not been a fun year for me.