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hummingwolf ([personal profile] hummingwolf) wrote2003-01-16 02:06 pm
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Oh, this is worse than useless. I can't convince myself to do anything today, which means that not only am I self-annoyed (a normal enough occurrence), I am actively endangering my chances of survival. Or passively endangering my chances of survival, if you want to get technical about it.

Alternating between apathy and sheer, blind terror. Neither state is conducive to much of anything. This sucks. I have deadlines. It looks like they will not be met. What happens after that? Can I make myself care by then?
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[identity profile] sophy.livejournal.com 2003-01-16 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
*sending good thoughts your way*

[identity profile] daisydumont.livejournal.com 2003-01-16 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
gosh, and with bad weather (maybe) on the way! i hope you can do a lot of this business by phone. would encouraging phone calls help?

terminal procrastination

[identity profile] icdedpeople.livejournal.com 2003-01-16 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
perhaps you could make some lists...
a list of things you could do to (possibly) change your situation for the better
a list of your reasons for not doing anything (what you gain, no matter how petty or trivial, by procrastinating -- and not talking about the bad things you "gain") -- why might you want things to reach critical mass
a list of the possible outcomes of doing nothing

this might be best done if you write as quickly as possible when you first wake up, ranting and (preferably) whining emotionally -- a lot of good insights could come out of that when/if done repeatedly. i'm serious about that. you might have to do some free-associative mining to get some answers. write privately to yourself abou how you think you might feel after taking the various possible actions...

then again, you could always just wait and see what happens. :-/ i'm prone to those kinds of evasions, having ADD, but then any neurotransmitter problem (which i'm guessing is the case here) lends itself to serious motivation problems. is there a hotline for general depression/anxiety troubles? you might be able to find some advocacy for you there...

whatever happens, i hope it works out.

(the previous comment had some leftover thought that i thought better of while i was editing)
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