perhaps you could make some lists... a list of things you could do to (possibly) change your situation for the better a list of your reasons for not doing anything (what you gain, no matter how petty or trivial, by procrastinating -- and not talking about the bad things you "gain") -- why might you want things to reach critical mass a list of the possible outcomes of doing nothing
this might be best done if you write as quickly as possible when you first wake up, ranting and (preferably) whining emotionally -- a lot of good insights could come out of that when/if done repeatedly. i'm serious about that. you might have to do some free-associative mining to get some answers. write privately to yourself abou how you think you might feel after taking the various possible actions...
then again, you could always just wait and see what happens. :-/ i'm prone to those kinds of evasions, having ADD, but then any neurotransmitter problem (which i'm guessing is the case here) lends itself to serious motivation problems. is there a hotline for general depression/anxiety troubles? you might be able to find some advocacy for you there...
whatever happens, i hope it works out.
(the previous comment had some leftover thought that i thought better of while i was editing)
terminal procrastination
a list of things you could do to (possibly) change your situation for the better
a list of your reasons for not doing anything (what you gain, no matter how petty or trivial, by procrastinating -- and not talking about the bad things you "gain") -- why might you want things to reach critical mass
a list of the possible outcomes of doing nothing
this might be best done if you write as quickly as possible when you first wake up, ranting and (preferably) whining emotionally -- a lot of good insights could come out of that when/if done repeatedly. i'm serious about that. you might have to do some free-associative mining to get some answers. write privately to yourself abou how you think you might feel after taking the various possible actions...
then again, you could always just wait and see what happens. :-/ i'm prone to those kinds of evasions, having ADD, but then any neurotransmitter problem (which i'm guessing is the case here) lends itself to serious motivation problems. is there a hotline for general depression/anxiety troubles? you might be able to find some advocacy for you there...
whatever happens, i hope it works out.
(the previous comment had some leftover thought that i thought better of while i was editing)