Feel free to skip this.

If I'm not very sociable for a while, it isn't because I don't like you. It's because I don't like anybody at the moment and you've just been temporarily lumped in with all the rest.

I'm trying to decide which choice is worse: Staying home today making a bunch of phone calls when I'm far too cranky and antisocial to make a good impression on anybody & will probably end up either crying and/or screaming when I need to be--or at least seem--rational in order to accomplish anything, suffering all the while from the nasty hot weather because I can't afford air-conditioning in my room; or going to the library where it's nice and air-conditioned and where I can read about many interesting things without having to deal with people too much, yet putting off for yet another day those phone calls I very much need to make if I want to continue eating beyond about July 15 or so.

I'd lean toward going to the library today and trying to make phone calls tomorrow if it weren't for the fact that, though today's weather is expected to be bad, tomorrow's is expected to be killer. How many meals can I skip without passing out, I wonder... maybe they'll let me sleep in the library...