hummingwolf | (no subject)

Preparation has a lot to do with how well one handles things. Did you do your homework? Then, ideally, you will be prepared to do well on this test. Unless you find out you picked up the wrong text at the college bookstore, you're in the wrong class and have done preparatory work that would have helped someone else but is completely and utterly useless to you.

My early life trained me well to live by directing vast amounts of energy toward intellectual pursuits, avoiding people much of the time because I'd figured out early on that most people would hurt and betray me given half a chance. Then I ended up with an illness that drains my energy, leaves me unable to concentrate on the things I trained myself to do for so long--but somehow I ended with more and more wonderful friends than I would have thought possible when I was younger. I don't have a clue how to make a life out of this. Somebody with a completely different background would have no problem with it, I'm sure.

On an unrelated note, whatever happened to Toni Childs? And why is an album called House of Hope one of the most depressing albums in my collection?

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I do know the feeling. I'm in it myself. Or did you know that already? But I also know that this whole "life's lessons" thing is just a metaphor, and like any metaphor, you can only push it so far before it becomes utter BS. After a certain level, we get to the part where we're all just bits of consciousness mashed uncomfortably into corporeal bodies, thrown into something ironicaly called "existence" and left to make what we can out of it. All of our fancy-schmancy contemplating is just our attempt to make something out of it. All of our building and creating and destroying and our perceptions that we are similar or separate from anyone or anything else. It's all just stuff we made up. In truth, we're all just stuck helplessly moving in some direction or other, waiting. Dissatisfied. Confused.

Geez, I'm really in a mood, aren't i? maybe some kilocalories would help.