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[hummingwolf]

It's one of those things that's hard to help people understand--either you know it already, or it's wildly counterintuitive. My left knee is killing me, my feet hurt, my back hurts, and I may not be able to leave the house for the next few days, not because I'm unfit but because I am ill with some condition nobody's figured out an effective treatment for yet. Given my physical limitations, it would be easy to say that I shouldn't have wasted my energy walking so far today when there are more useful things I could have done here at home.

But sometimes pretending you don't have limitations is the best possible thing you can do for yourself. Not all the time, mind you--sometimes what seems to be stupid is genuinely stupid, and there isn't anything you can do but accept those limitations before you kill yourself. But sometimes, every once in a while, you have the blessed chance to forget.

Besides, if I hadn't decided to walk the extra miles, when's the next time I would have gotten the chance to see wild deer close up?

Right then, I'm going to bed now. I really, really need to rest.

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[hasufin.livejournal.com]

Right now I'm just revelling in the fact that (for the moment) my foot is healed up and I can walk normally.


I can't blame you for going on a walk. Any chance you get.

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I hope your foot is still doing well!

[meretia]

Really, from what you've been saying lately, it sounds like you might be pushing your limitations outwards a little, at least for walking? And even if not that, then it's good for people to just get out on good days, so that at least if they have to be limited they don't have to be confined all the time.

Take it easy on yourself now, and rest well.

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I got plenty of rest yesterday, so here's hoping I'll have energy again by the weekend!

[meretia]

Good! Hope you have a nice weekend.

[megthelegend.livejournal.com]

I think I get it, fwiw. 6 days after I'd had Hayley (via c-section) I took both kids on a longish walk to the park and back, and strolled around the park with Hayley in the pram a little. I took it easy and didn't walk flat out for more than maybe 2 minutes, but it was still way too much and I felt really stuffed when I got home.

But man, it was good to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE and feel a little independent again.

Hope you feel better soon, sweetie.

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Meg.

[sophy.livejournal.com]

You know, I used to sometimes wonder about the walking when you felt so awful. Not like I was questioning you knowing your body and limitations and abilities, because I wouldn't do that - but just wondering how that worked for you, because as you said, it's kind of counterintuitive if it isn't you. Then I started comparing it to myself and things I do. Like how some days I can feel just terrible but I still have to force myself to sit up at the computer or color or just SOMEthing. And then I'd be coloring all day, which takes a lot out of me, but saying I couldn't do other things that needed being done. And that doesn't make a lot of sense, either. But it's like - sometimes you just need to do the things that make you feel good, even if they make you feel worse. And yea, other things may seem more important, but staying sane and doing the things we love really are more important. And that's hard to see when it's not-you, but we ourselves tend to know what's best for us.
So I just wanted to share that with you. And I hope it all made sense. heh

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It all made sense to me. :-)

I feel ya sister. . .

[kraftykity.livejournal.com]

I really understand this.
The need to forget my limitations is exactly why I taught myself to knit with my eyes closed before I lost my sight (which is much better now, I can read again). At the worst of my post-surgery blindness, I could knit. I could sit in the sun, and my fingers were busy, and I could pretend that there wasn't anything wrong with my eyes, I was just closing them for a little while. Allowing myself to indulge the need to forget/pretend was what kept me sane. OF COURSE, it drove those around me insane, as I did some of the truly stupid things, like pouring boiling tea water over my fingers, but hey, everyone is entitled to a little stupidity. :)

Whatever is wrong, I hope they find a way to treat it soon.

Until then, stay sane. Well, within reason. . .

Re: I feel ya sister. . .

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Thanks for commenting!

(Sanity? I've heard of sanity...)