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[hummingwolf]

Y'know, I keep living my life in the constant expectation that things will end. As I type, I'm wondering when the power will shut off. Not that there's any particular reason for the power to shut off today, mind you, but the lines are old, wind might blow down tree branches, and you never know what the day will bring.

Along with the power, I'm expecting my hearing to fade, my vision to darken, and, of course, people all around me to die. This stuff isn't particularly close to the surface of my mind, most days, but today I'm realizing that it's never entirely gone either. No wonder I keep my muscles so tense all the time.

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[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

the problem is that a lot of that is just true. i think we have to hide from our reality-based fears to function at all! the tension is definitely still there underneath.

the power, otoh, may not flicker until the next windstorm. we had several brown-outs over the weekend.

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Yep. My reality-based fears have been much closer to the surface than usual lately, which makes them much more difficult than usual to ignore. Not the most comfortable way of living!

Power in this house does flicker for no apparent reason sometimes. The wires here really are pretty old!