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I suppose I'm feeling better. It probably would not be right to say that I feel less sick. There is a pervasive sense of unreality today. It's as if the world decided to pretend there was a Thursday this week, but there isn't really, it's just a game of make-believe till we all decide it's time to have a real day again. There may be a real world out there... it doesn't seem to matter. Hi there, migraine, how are ya?

I thought about going outside, putting my socks and shoes on and hoping the grass stains at my knees aren't too obvious as I go out to play with the real people and do some things that I really would be better off having done. I didn't think about it too hard. If I thought about reality too much, see, the migraine would remember that it's supposed to bring a nasty headache with it, so I'd really rather not remind it. If I can get the aura without the headache, that's fine. It would be more convenient, less interfering with practical matters, if there were neither migraine aura nor migraine pain. Since it looks like the aura will be here anyway, though, I'd prefer it to play a solo. Reality will still be there tomorrow, right?

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I know what you mean. I hate to "waste" relatively pain free days by not taking full advantage of them to do all the things I want to do. And yet I know all of my early warning signs of a flare and hate to tempt fate by going overboard with activity. Sometimes it's just best to take it easy. Sometimes the activity is worth the risk of feeling worse later. I trust my gut instinct on decisions like these, and it sounds like that's what you did today too.

Heh. I can't really say I chose to take it easy today. More that there wasn't much of an option and I didn't have the will to fight it. I've never been drunk so I don't know for sure, but I suspect that me with a migraine aura is a lot like I would be drunk. Not exactly in close contact with reality. Very mellow right now, which is nice in that the pain is mostly staying away. I can feel a little headache if I think about it, but I'm mostly not thinking about it 'cos there are other things to think about like the swirly colors before my eyes. Hmm... maybe this is like the effects of some drug other than alcohol. Either way, I don't think I could walk very far in a straight line right now.

Yikes that sounds awful! Can't say I have ever experienced anything like you are describing, and I am grateful.

My early signs of a flare are tight muscles, brain fog, sluggish movement, uneasy bowels, feeling tired and hot. I can usually function tolerably well in this state but if I overdo I develop pain.

*sends good vibes*

I hope you get really better soon. :)

Thank you! Me too. :-)