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On the bad side: While I was out today, after POV-Ray had rendered six and a half frames of an animation I was working on, the program decided it had a problem and stopped. I got home, shut down the program, restarted, and it told me my code was degenerate. Degenerate! The nerve! Tried several other scene files which worked just fine yesterday or the day before, and it had problems with the code in those too. Grrr. If this program doesn't get itself sorted out by tomorrow, it'll be replaced by a fresh download, I swear.

Also bad, but expected: Social Security denied my first appeal. Yes, most people are turned down both on first application and first appeal, but several of my friends have been accepted earlier and I was hoping I'd get lucky too. Interestingly, one of the reports they said they used in their determination was from the doctor visit back in February I never managed to pay for. Wonder what he told them about me, given that he said their office would never get the form he filled out unless I paid a sum of money... hmm, roughly equal to my current monthly income from the state. Their reasons for turning me down are simply wrong--one thing they claim that I can do is work in a standing position, when standing is the one thing I can't do for long periods without dire consequences.

And still on the bad side: My right hip continues to hurt a heck of a lot when I sit in this (or any other) chair and my physical with the new state-approved clinic is more than two weeks from now.

In my most memorable dream so far this week, I learned that I was dying of some rare, incurable ailment ensuring that my bones would painfully disintegrate and I'd end up as a little, miserable, boneless blob before death. I was trying to figure out how many of my far-flung friends would come visit before my skeleton turned to powder but woke up before getting any answers.

On the good side: My endurance for walking continues to be good this week--I walked roughtly 4.5 miles today without passing out, though admittedly the nausea was pretty bad by the last quarter-mile. There's a new route I've begun walking around sunset lately, a big loop with no steep hills and plenty of shortcuts in case I get too tired to finish the full version. Before sunset, the route takes me west along major roads with relatively few trees so I get a good view of the clouds; the second half of the route is on neighborhood streets where the fireflies fly up to greet me. (Tonight's sunset was done up in pastels, oils, and gold leaf. Three cheers for the artist!)

Also on the good side: I have fresh brownies with minimal burning.

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Yrg. How much work/time until your next appeal?

Brownies, yumm.

I never burn them, I tend to under cook them. At least you won't get food poisoning.

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Don't know what'll be involved before the second appeal. I'll call the lawyer's office on Monday. It's interesting that the state department which SS based this decision on is the same department that said I was disabled and qualified for the temporary income I'm getting from Maryland. The state program I was accepted for is supposed to use the same rules as the Social Security program does too.

There don't seem to be any pans in the house of the right size for the amount of brownie batter I used, so while the brownies aren't actually burnt, they are crispy.

That is very typical of a dual system. Same facts, two diff results.

Luck on the next try.

Hey, I hope the physical turns up something that is actually treatable.

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Hey, I hope the physical turns up something that is actually treatable.

That'd be a nifty change of pace.

that february doctor was a slimeball. pure and simple. i spit in his general direction. (it also pisses me off you're being made to wait so long for an appointment for your hip.) sure hope your next appeal goes all the way to goal!

To be fair to the February doctor, he was always helpful in previous years--when I had the money to pay him. The next appointment is for a full physical; if I'd just made an appointment for the hip alone, I'd probably have been able to get an earlier one. But I need a full physical as soon as possible and they told me I couldn't have two appointments in their computer at once.

I'm told that nearly everybody who makes it to a second appeal gets approved, so here's hoping and keeping my fingers crossed.

Sorry about the bad news. I was hoping you'd get lucky, too. *hugs and hopeful warm fuzzies*

Thanks for the hugs & warm fuzzies! Always much appreciated. :-)

sometimes i feel guilty for having gotten approved for disability so fast. i think i lucked out and got a good social worker. i shall make boring-looking, suited, governement-worker-likeness dollies and get out my pins for you, since just crossing my fingers isn't working.

and should your bones turn to powder, i'd show up..

just to tell you off-colour jellyfish jokes.

Could you do dollies dressed up as doctors too? Not sure if that'd help with my appeal or not, but it couldn't hurt.

and should your bones turn to powder, i'd show up..

just to tell you off-colour jellyfish jokes.

Heh. If my body ever starts to turn that bloblike, I'll keep you informed.