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Sigh...
I really need to get into the habit of writing up some of these things that go through my mind. I do have fascinating thoughts worth thinking, honest I do. Was reminded of this this morning as I read the journal of someone not on my friends list or friends friends list, someone I really don't have much in common with at all. [Edit to note that I don't mean to equate being on my LJ "friends" list with having much in common with me--quite a few of y'all are just plain weird. And I mean that in a good way. :-)] Yet somehow, in spite of our differences, as I read her journal I realized I was reading things I'd thought recently, things I could have written myself, but, somehow... didn't. I need to get some of these things down onscreen or on paper. Even if I end up deciding that what I've spewed forth isn't worth sharing with anyone else, I need to do this at least to clarify things for myself.

But not now. For now, I'm just gonna sit here eating my oatmeal and reading other people's journals.

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Big reason why it's so important for me to solidify myself, to coalesce...

When you've got some substance, when you've got some sort of a solid core, (almost) no matter how slight, you can draw to yourself knowledge, experiences, people, and they all enrich you. With awareness, you can build on that foundation with every breath you take. You can give generously of yourself because you are able to live with abundance.

When you're not solid enough, you're like a whirlpool, drawing things to yourself in an effort to fill the void, but getting them only to lose them again, sunk to the bottom of a sea you can't fathom.

Or at least that's the way I get.

It's cyclical for me, of course. Definitely still at the part of the cycle where I need to coalesce, oh yes. Wonder how long this will last this time.