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Was panicking about various things (again--I really need to break that habit), so went to look for some nice, calming Kawase Hasui prints online. Looking at this one helped. Of course, now I have to go get ready to wander round in the bright hot sunshine & deal with actual human beings. Eep.

Next, checked out my friends list & was put in rather different mood by some friends-only posts. Let's just say I will never see postboxes or orbital sanders quite the same way again. Good thing nobody mentioned Saran Wrap or I'd be good for nothing the rest of the day.

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Somebody please wake me up. I'm sure this is all some ridiculous dream.

How on Earth am I supposed to apply for a job or government benefits without a Social Security card? I know I had the card recently. There's no way the card couldn't be here, and yet it persists in not being here. I've looked everyplace it could be and several places it couldn't. I've called the one place that might've asked to see it recently, and they don't have it. So now I get to apply for a new one--and in the meantime, I don't get to apply for anything else.

Please, please wake me up. I'm not enjoying this dream.

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Grf. I keep trying to figure out where I put the dang thing, and I keep coming back to the same places it's not. Hoping against hope that it really is here in my room someplace if only I could remember where. Alas, it looks like I'll have to deal with Social Security and the Accursed Voice Mail again.

The way I've been ransacking my room, it really does look like a tornado's hit. This does not bode well for finding anything else I may need.

Okay, I tell myself, take slow, deep breaths. Stop thinking about the dire financial situation and focus a bit more on how wonderful your friends are.

Good. Feeling better now... until I see my room again, remember why it looks like this, and get all hyperventilated again.

I so don't want to have to deal with Social Security again...

I keep wanting to make more and more posts about this, which is insane because I really have nothing new to say. So I keep adding meaningless drivel to this post instead. It's either type maniacally (in between attacks upon my belongings to try to find an elusive card) or scream, and I'm afraid the screaming might frighten the newest housemates.

There really isn't any way for that card not to be here, dang it. I know exactly where it is, I'm just not seeing it there. So if it's here where it must be, how did it become invisible?

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Okay, ransacking my room clearly isn't helping. Must stop obsessing about this and think about something else for a while--maybe then I can come back to the search with a clear head and deal with things rationally. For now, must think about something else.

You people need to post more.