Argh

Memories have been bombarding me all day--coming at me from all sides--never giving me a moment's rest--not a second's peace--hounding me unless by sheer force of will I manage to hold them at bay for just a brief instant so I can uselessly try to concentrate on something else--

I wouldn't mind so much--I'd welcome them, even--if these weren't such fragmentary, useless things. I remember the middle of some distant conversation, but can't catch even the echoes of the beginnings and ends. It's very frustrating. "I asked that--and then what? What did he say? What did she do? How important is this to me now?"

Gack. I hope I can get some sleep tonight.

O joy

Thought I was finally sufficiently recovered from my latest bout with the flu to go out and do some necessary things today (like buying shoes I could wear to a job interview). So, naturally, I woke up too late & too bleary to do much of anything. I still could go to the closest mall & attempt to find something, but I've never had any luck at their shoe stores, and besides, I loathe shoe shopping with a fiery passion anyway & shouldn't attempt it when feeling like this. Argh.

Downloaded the POV-Ray 3.5 beta 12 this morning and was reminded that one should never become too attached to experimental features in beta software. I wonder if any of the scenes I created last week still work; I know my favorite one doesn't. Pity, that.

Was reading bunches of strangers' journals earlier--friends' friends lists, friends' friends' friends lists, etc. Aside from a few chronically ill people, everyone's leading a much more interesting life than I am. I take some small comfort in the fact that many of them are not living well. But gosh darn it, I want a life of my own.

*The hummingwolf takes a moment to kick and beat at the walls of her invisible prison. The walls don't pay the least little bit of attention.

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Ooh, I see what the problem is. It's not the spline, it's POV-Ray's new default camera, making the macro I was relying on go all wonky. I should try to see if my flu-addled sleep-deprived brain can figure out how to make the macro usable again.

Yes, I realize nobody reading this knows what I'm talking about. I'll just go off in a corner somewhere and babble geekily to myself.