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Ever since the age of twelve or so I've had a secret language. This language is so secret even I don't know more than a few words or exactly what those words mean. What words I know are stealthy yet teasing, with meanings dancing behind my back or out of the corner of my eye, letting their presence be known not by knowledge they could bring but by the feelings they leave behind.

One word brings with it an aura of strong negation, something that could accompany the phrase "No way in HELL" while being more emphatic. Another word carries connotations of deepest contempt. A phrase is full of defiance, rebellion, revolution against oppression, yet the feeling is without any guarantee that those freed from oppression will behave any better than their former oppressors. And the last word brings a note of comfort and peace with melancholy overtones. This word does not imply that everything will be all right or even that present troubles can be survived. The comfort is the sort that comes from the knowledge that whatever you are suffering, you are not suffering alone.

I need more good words.

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fascinating. do you mean this language was *received* as opposed to developed? like something you hear but didn't create? how interesting. i like the sorrowful comfort. i mean, it'd be great if that comfort did bring with it a sense that all will be ok, but i don't think the world (or God) works that way. suffering-with is what 'compassion' means, after all...

It's certainly not something I consciously invented. I'm not even very good at pronouncing the words--while the vowels are suspiciously close to American English pronunciations, there's a common consonant I just don't get right. The words seem like something partially remembered--I can't even say they're half-remembered since there are more words than I mentioned in the post that don't even carry a codifiable feeling beyond a basic "This means something important."

Cryptic.

Interesting.

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That post was as detailed as I can be. It's odd having a secret language that's a secret even from me.

And my mouse has gone insane again (I think you replied to a comment that got deleted somehow? Argh!). The cursor's going everywhere! It's out of control! Awuoeripujgljasd;fuoiupoerqwfweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeble!

cursing in your new language already.

No no, that wasn't my language (which isn't terribly new, though it's newer than Esperanto I suppose). My secret language has more V sounds and far fewer Es.

Just teasing you CB.

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glossolalia...

But I never actually say the words and my pronunciation is a bit off...