Preparation for impending consolidation?

[hummingwolf]

In February I wrote:

"It's strange. I have this feeling that I need to prepare for something to come by solidifying myself in a way, creating and hardening a central core to my personality which can be used as a sort of base of operations; or perhaps it's more like solid ground in the middle of a bog, a landing pad for all future flights of fancy. Something solid, something central, something hard and well-defined.

"But I feel like I need to do this self-solidifying by scattering myself to the four winds, seeing which parts of me come back and what surprises they bring with them when they come."

Something's shifted. Though there are still places I wanted to send them, I can feel those parts of me coming back home. The time of their return is unknown to me, but they are winging their way back and I need to make some preparations. Now is the time to shore up my foundations, so that when that solid core forms it will not be lopsided but will be straight and level as I need it to be.

The above may be meaningless to you who read this. It makes perfect sense to me. Then again, sleep-deprived as I am, "Jabberwocky" makes perfect sense to me.

Comments

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

well, unless i'm relating to the concept incorrectly, i think i may understand in fact. "coalescing" is exactly the work i've been trying to do for quite some time. i'm glad you find it happening now. that's a very good thing.

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

p.s. and please excuse a tangential question -- is that the nicky holland who played on Songs from the Big Chair?

[ex-eminentia486.livejournal.com]

The above may be meaningless to you who read this. It makes perfect sense to me. Then again, sleep-deprived as I am, "Jabberwocky" makes perfect sense to me.

if i had a nickel ...

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i am plagued by this problem. what i write in my journal makes sense to so few people.

the annotations i make here, about my life, have this unique ability to make sense only to me. the abuse i've endured for writing in such a tone, and in such a manner, has been substantial.

what i have been forced to seek out, then, aren't the people who do understand what i write, but those who accept that what i do write is both meaningful and important, even if only to me.

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Jabberwocky? i feel you ...

[wig.livejournal.com]

Wow, that is beautiful, and it makes sense to me. But a lot of people don't think my journal makes sense.

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

"coalescing"! what a wonderful word!!! and how applicable to my current place on the path too! :) :)

-pixie :)

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

what a wonderful visual metaphor!!! thank you for sharing it!!

I am finding when the dust starts settling, the fresh refinement of self truth is lighter, a breath of fresh air, but stronger...

welcoming self home... wonderful! :)

i wouldn't worry too much about lopsidedness... it seems to me welcoming yourself home with open arms is all that is necessary, and your winged truth knows where to roost within you.

"Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly." -Renee Locks <link=http://store3.yimg.com/i/brushdance_1697_5405626>->link to card

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

hi, I don't know you, but I was quite outraged that anyone would abuse you or anyone for how one writes in one's own journal!!!

*insert image of hackled cat here* ;)


good for you for continuing to write for YOURSELF! yes, true friends include not only those who understand us, but those who love and accept us despite mutual differences of opinion or perspectives. :) :)

*hugs*
-pixie
(universal cheerleader) ;)

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

*gasp* TFF?! i luuuuv them!!

hmm... i could only find reference to nicky holland on "seeds of change" album...

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

As the Other Vicki :-) pointed out, Nicky was on The Seeds of Love--specifically doing backing vocals & piano on several songs as well as co-writing "Badman's Song," "Advice for the Young at Heart," "Swords and Knives," "Year of the Knife," and "Famous Last Words." (Yes, I had to get out the CD booklet for all that--my memory isn't that good. :-))

Anyway, the two NH CDs I've located are Nicky Holland (from 1992) and Sense and Sensuality (1997). She continued co-writing with people more famous than she is... Lloyd Cole, Cyndi Lauper, Andy Patridge from XTC. Her music is a sort of jazz-inflected soft pop, possibly best described as "classy." I like it, but you'd probably guessed that by now!

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

lazy me, i could've gone in & dug out my vinyl. (covered in dust by now!) thank you for taking the time to look it up. i vaguely remember concert footage of them singing big chair songs, with a blonde backing them up on synths & stuff. maybe i have confused her with nicky holland, or maybe she was already with them by that time. in any case, i'd be interested to hear her own work & will look around. thanks! (cool morning, mmmmm... gotta go vote now.)

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

what i have been forced to seek out, then, aren't the people who do understand what i write, but those who accept that what i do write is both meaningful and important, even if only to me.

What amazes me is that that isn't obvious to most people. Sorry that you've had to deal with so many people too dimwitted and/or self-centered to see the obvious.

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

Oh, people only say that 'cos you're insane, and whoever listens to normal people anyway??

[hummingwolf.livejournal.com]

I still feel the need to provide a good landing-pad. For some of those parts, it's been a long journey.

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

*giggle*

haha, seeds of change makes boxed beans and rice!! hahahaa!

that's what i get for replying to posts at 2am LOL

(or maybe subliminal message to self, huh? woooooo *insert twilight zone music* )

hee!

[skygypsy.livejournal.com]

heehee :)

well happy landings!!

:)

(suddenly the lever2000 soap ad popped in my head... 'loving care for all your 2000 parts'... *hee*)

(and i almost didn't comment about the prep, cuz i knew you know what you have to do and figured you'd say 'thanks anyway but...', but just on the remote chance you were worried, i had to do my encouraging bit. *grin* )

-cheerleader pixie ;)

[ex-eminentia486.livejournal.com]

you're very sweet.

thank you for the hugs and for the encouragement.

emma